Since school days, when the teacher asked me, “what
would u like to do or what is ur ambition”.. I always froze n can't really get
the answer out instantly, as i never can make up my mind, as I would like to do
many things. Ended up answering either a lawyer or a pilot.. (lawyer~ reason
being, i just like argument, pilot~ I just like to fly like the eagle, soaring high
in the air...
Funny thing was, I got my chance to take up Law, even only until matriculation
level at UIA, until MAS call me for interview.. So guys, even I don't get the
chance to be a lawyer, I have a hell lots of friends that are now, n damned
they are good, until the CID who brought me for remand, told me, that he had
never met such good quality lawyers yet so humble.. yes, those r my buddies, n
they came to me at time i didnt even call them, n they never ask me a single
cent coz at that time I have none :)".
My best of time, was during my training days in Australian Aviation Collage
Australia, where young boys, trying to become man, visiting red light area, dgn
mke yg comey2 jer sumer hee :D..
Even the training was tight (only 10 months to finish what others do in 18
months) , I had the best of time there.. Flying for me, like an eagle..
Commercials days was ok, during working time in MAS, I can't complaint, but a
little.. i tend to think about money than that love for flying.. Yeah, you guys
are right to, as, I have nothing else besides that to support my family.
To
enjoy flying again, I decided to start finding income elsewhere, so, I turn to
business.
Well, I do enjoy it as, it lets me meet people..but again, business world is a
cruel world, underground world is much more forgiving..
When the business start to fall, i left my work as a pilot to try n save the
business, to the very last breath.. not that I care about money so much, but
the love I have for the people around me.. My mom always says, don't let me
love a person, because I will love them whole heartedly.
When it collapsed, I lost everything that I have n everything that I love along
with it.. It took me months n months to get hold of myself, bcoze, there is no
more reason to live ;)" .. during that time, that last breath, sumthing
took over, which I admitted calling Him, the Devil in me.. He push me to be
strong, to be crazy, just no more fear..as, I always looking to find Death
himself, n pinch his cheek..
Within that 10 months, I became a singer, bouncer, "Ster" -ermm if u
r confuse, its sumthing like gangster larr, but, i have no gang, want to
gangnam also cannot, so i became a "ster" jer lah.. paham dah kan
:)".., became a life guard, body guard, pool cleaner, drug dealer..(eehh
takder takder, sjer nak check korang bacer betul2 ker tak, tu ajer ;)
Anyway, try to become a social escort, but no one wants
me..dush!! ( by the ways, had lots of help during the days by parents, brothers
n sis'..uncles n aunty's, cousins, friends n there r even some who just support
me fm behind, far, so that i won't notice or know, but I do ;)" ) .. owh
ps. during the biz days was good, got chance to learn shooting with the best,
abg2 n tuan2 dari Unit Tindakan Khas.. Waah got chance to feel like a police
guy for a while (wanted to be one also before hee :D ).. 2 years I really
enjoyed my time with them, with the best of the best.
rother praveen n record
it abg awang bpr's place for free.. thank you abg awang, sorry takdew duit lagi
nak record yg laen .. hee :D
Suddendly Angels came.. I never thought I would meet such persons and couple
that are so loving n caring, that give n give n give n keep on giving, their
time, their love, with so much effort, to give me air to breath, giving me a
reason to live.. Only boss can repay what they did.. tq guys, u know who u are
kan :)".. alar kalau org pegi kedai kita kat space u 8 Mall tu nanti,
diorang pon akan tau punyer larr.
One time, I tried going to take a break 4 a while in london, some of u guys
might notice, some may not.. BUt what I didnt tell u guys why I came back..Nak dengar.? Hmm layan jew larr abg naz ngarut kay..
After 16 years of being an MAS pilot n going everywhere n anywhere in the
world, I never been to United Kingdom.. So this is my chance larr kan :)"
senonok masa tew.. hmm.. They 12/13 hours of flight seems so long.. as I
arrived, at Immigration, I was detained.. even when I told them I'm staying at
Malaysian Embassy staff's house, I was a pilot for 16 years with MAS, n many
others, after 5 hours of interogation, they sent me back to Malaysia.. Hmm, the
Rm 4,000 ticket (which for me feels like rm100k at time we don't have much),
they just treat it like rm 4.. And through out my career, that was my longest
journey..KL - london - transit london - KL .. but again, I was happy to come
back to M'sia.. Which I'm proud to call it my home.. n always there is no other
place like home..
Now, suddenly, with a small weekend shop by the side, chance to fly again..
Hermm, i thrown away all my licence n everything else that matters with it as i
thought i wouldn't be going there again.. but this is what I want, to be an
aerobatic pilot, to soar like an eagle, to fly like a bird.. but can it
happen.. lesen dah expired for so so long, pon dah hilang hermmm.. Just try..
if I got the license also, doesn't mean they will take me .. right, right.. (u
guys ni, what la, say la in ur heart..abg naz u will get it, u will get it), if
I don't get it (sedey lar sikit) , korang belanjer lar abg naz minum kayyy :P
Well life is still there for me to live it, even through sadness n pain, I
still can say , "I am the lucky one", whhyy.?
I go through life with
so many colors n got to do so many things in this one lifetime n.. I havent
past fourty.. Damned I'm still young.. ( korang yg 20an sure rasa lagi tua dari
abg naz kan :)".. sori ego cikit ).. I have beautiful family n lots of
love around.
And the best thing that i get from all these, are friends like u guys..
knowingly or un knowingly, u guys still read my writing, even how stupid it may
be.. just because u do care, u do.. I won't know, but you know who u are.
So
thank you friends, family, guys n gals .. i love u all (but really, really
please..even I have lots of Gay friends, I am not gay, kawan boleh, pegang jangan
haah") .. Signing off now.. Take care Guys n love u all' ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
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